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I am dying. I am dying and there's nothing I can do about it. I know this, but I refuse to believe that I will just fade away quietly: that when I'm gone and when those that knew me are gone, that there will be nothing more of me in existence. I want to be remembered; I want to make a mark. Is it not the human condition to desire this?

I feel that no matter what good thing I attempt to pursue, it takes me somewhere that I had never intended to be, and that much further from my goal. Every consequent step taking me further down a tangential path I never consciously made. I have two hands and a voice and the knowledge of how to use them, but I feel less and less that I am competent enough even to do that.

I don't desire fortune or fame, but at least profundity. I do desire to be a good person. I strive to be the best person that I can be, and I am not blind to the fact that I am clearly not achieving this goal. As each day passes, I feel myself sitting idly by as my potential slips and my window of opportunity closes a little more. I am dying. I am dying, and I need to do something about it.
Just some thoughts:

No, I'm not actually terminal, not in an immediate sense lol

I scribbled out this little bit of prose one night, and I didn't know what to do with it. So I thought I'd share it with you. 
Hopefully by the end of reading it, it doesn't seem like too much of a downer, but rather a place to start: an...impetus, so to speak :P
I like sharing my thoughts like this. You might expect to see more of these from me in the future :)

Cheers!

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Manlarr Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014
:nod:
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scarlettdeviant2 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014
seems like your in my head.....
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OdinofOld Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm going to sleep on this and comment in the morning as I'm getting weak now.
I believe I can speak with some authority on the matter.
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Sacramosis Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist
I know exactly what you mean.
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barefootmamax6 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yup, nobody gets out alive, not one single person.we can only busy ourselves to forget
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TMaeth Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2014
;-( just wow!
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KingfisherSilentArmy Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Very interesting!
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Maggiesdaisy Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
my condensed version could be "shit happen; move on as best as you can; do no harm"   

But I like your version much better: even if it did kinda make me sad. :D (Big Grin) 
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Eureka2000 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014
That was beautiful.
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VeritablyV Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I do so intimately know, of what your prose does show.  I find the more I grasp desperately, the more I feed into insanity.  I don't want that destiny, no, that's not for me.  I see the only constant is change.  I can be a part of that change.  Ripples will flow out from me, touching the world in ways I cannot see.  And you, your words have touched me, with their very profundity!  We are an interdependent part of the whole, made up of each individual human soul.
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